Today I went to work. In my point of view, it was easy job, physically as all we had to do was give out flyers and samples of the coffee. But it was hard to do emotionally. I spent 10h with my friend and her boyfriend ( Since they're my co-workers) cuddling, kissing, hugging, laughing, joking and everything that we used to do. It was torture. It made me miss him more. Especially those good times that we shared. But after a few hours of seeing them like that, it just made me mad. Because I remembered that he told me that he wouldn't let me go that easily. But guess what? He did. I believe I ranted, " HE SAID THAT HE WOULDN'T FUCKING LEAVE ME THAT EASILY BUT APPARENTLY THAT WAS JUST A HUGE ASS FUCKING LIE. WHAT IF THE WORDS " I love you." or "you mean so much to me." or " I've never met someone who was this important to me." WAS JUST PLAIN BULLSHIT!? "
Like I've said.. If he is going to base a relationship on that "in-love" feeling ( honeymoon stage), the relationship was never going to last. NEVER.
It was really really hard to see them do the things that we used to do. But that's the thing, isn't it? The keyword.. USED. It's in past tense, meaning that it's in the past. I should just learn to accept it and just forget about it. Time to just lay everything out in order... burn them one by one.... and say goodbye to the memories. It's hard to say, but it's time to do it. It's time to get rid of the past memories to make room for newer and happier ones.
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