I absolutely loath nights like this

And when I say " nights like this ", I meant those nights where your thoughts keep you up. The depressing thoughts, over thinking, picturing horrible scenes that will never occur. THOSE HORRIBLE THOUGHTS. If only there was a way to shut the brain up just so we could get a good night's sleep right?
I guess this is what I have to suffer because I've been sleeping for the whole entire day. DON'T BLAME ME! My medication makes me feel super drowsy.
Thus, I am unable to fall asleep at this hour. So let's just try to stay up the whole night to keep my body clock in check, yea? ( Not recommended but what the heck )

At the moment, depressing thoughts are going through my mind at the moment. Thoughts like doing VERY badly for O levels ( My mom brought up the subject during lunch and she said something about me going to ITE ) , or me choosing the wrong course then messing up my future, OR WORST! I might have NO future at all!
I will always try to aim high. My standards are high but reachable when hard work is placed in that subject. But it's like, whenever I try to reach for my target, I'm always inches away from reaching it. So near, yet so far,  My worst thought that I've had for the past few days were mainly on, " What if I am not able to reach ANY of my goals and dreams in life. What if I'm only meant to be a dreamer."
Well, my thoughts were like that until I came across this motivational quote by Jean de La Bruyere
" No road is too long for him who advances slowly and does not hurry, and not attainment is beyond his reach who equips himself with patience to achieve it "
After reading that, I realized that in all I do, I would always skip the small steps and aim for the harder things first. Meaning? I have no foundation. I realized that I should be taking baby steps, not big huge gigantic leaps. Baby Steps. Start from the smallest and work your way to be the BEST!