That is the reason for me preparing for the day we break up. That is why my mind comes up with different little situations in my head, even though I know it will never happen. This is why I'm trying to face the fact that I'll lose you to someone better than I will ever be.
It's not about me not trusting you, my dear. It's just safety mechanisms that I've somehow embedded into myself so that I wouldn't have to feel the full blow of depression and hurt.
I've been hurt, used and betrayed so many times that I found it hard to trust anyone. I've tried my best NOT to get close to anyone. Because when I get close with someone. Life will make up some stupid excuse for that friend to leave me alone.
Let me explain
From Secondary 3, I've realized that all of my good friends has left the country or we've stopped communicating. The people that I've opened up to... Just gone.. okay, being over dramatic here, but we've gotten pretty distant. Which is very sad.I am afraid to get close with another person because it hurts to see them walk away from your life.
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