Eventful day!

As you can see from the photos, we went to Strictly Pancakes !!! Carisa brought us there. It was delicious! And the syrup was so runny. haha! Amongst all of them, mine is the most pathetic looking one, however mine is also the cheapest one of them all. And I was satisfied with my food. Pancakes and BACON! COME ON... it's bacon! who needs anything more?
After that, Tessa, Tasha, Carisa, Dillon and I slacked at Starbucks to eat the marshmallow pie that Tasha, Tessa and I made the previous day.

It's the perfect pie for sweet toothed people and chocoholics since we filled it with chocolate chips and M&Ms. Who wants a bite??

When Carisa had to leave, the rest of us fetched her to the MRT station, then we set off to Paragon to get Dillon's medicine. On our way back to the MRT, we stopped by Topshop, Abercrombie and fitch ( we were wondering why so many people kept going in there. But it was so creepy because it was so dark ) and Forever 21.

Both Tasha and I look tiny here. Dang.

Once I arrived home, my mother was in a pretty bad mood ( as usual) . So I immediately blessed her then went to my room. I remembered that it was my parents 8th anniversary today, so I went to find a fancy shmancy restaurant to have dinner in. We agreed to go to Blue Potato. It was located in the Swiss Hotel the merchant court which is in Clark Quay. The food there was delicious! The bread will take a while because they will only start baking the bread once you enter the restaurant, so as to keep it fresh. Nice. The meat there was the best, it was delicious and it was VERY soft. Tenderised well!

I'll let the photos do the talking.

This is the BLUE (purple to me though) potato! 

 We had a gorgeous view as well :) Wonderful. Shall bring Tedd here one day! Must share how good the food is to him!!

Self portrait

It's been a while since I've made self portraits. This is my favourite so far. :3

Dedication to my pet turtles :)

THIS is my pet turtle, I've had him for 8 years. I actually have 2. However, I didn't get a clear picture of the other one. It's so figidty... From a tiny thing like this
  to that! Urgh! they grow up so fast. *snif snif*
Sadly, I'll have to set them free because they're getting too big for their tank. I'm currently looking for a habitat where there would be a person who feeds them regularly, a pond, plenty of sunlight and very few turtles in the same habitat. Since they've been in my care since they were young, I'm not sure how they would survive about living in the wild. OMG I'm so worried for them :( I don't want to let them go. I've had them for so long! I bet that I'm going to cry when I leave them in a habitat that is best for them. *sigh*

Christmas eve/day with family and friends

The Aguilons

My mom, brother and I

Solo picture!!!

My family decides to take a family shot before heading to Mico's house. Apparently, everyone was waiting for our arrival and were starving. haha! So sorry for that! But hey, that just means you'll eat more right? : P 

When we arrived to Mico's house, James was already there. I was surprised that he brought his whole desktop to Mico's house. 

TA DA! See, I wasn't fibbing. 

Mico and I were just going back and forth from the kitchen to his room to get alcohol because he wanted to try and drink. When I found out that he wanted to experience a hangover, I hid the vodka into the storage room. A HANGOVER IS NOT FUN!! My gosh! And this guy is younger than me. Me, on the other hand, still dislikes alcohol and the taste of it. Ick..bitter.. 

We didn't really pay attention to the timing, neither were excited when it was already 12:00a.m. We just passed each other gifts and went on to our own business. The adults were singing on the karaoke machine, James on his desktop, Jocel on his desktop, Mico in his room watching television and using  his laptop, my brother using the laptop and me just sitting on the bed..doing nothing. Christmas seems more fun when kids are around. To see how happy and excited they are for Christmas day. Sadly, I guess we grew out of it. 

Group shot on Christmas day!

We stayed at their house until 5.45a.m. or somewhere around there. Then we went home to open our presents back home : D.

Seriously love the way they wrapped the gift

Paper?

Fossil watches FTW! whoO!
After that, I decided to clean my room up before heading to bed. Here is how my room looks now!

Just wait...In a week's time, it'll all be messy again. haha!

Purplishious :D

I'VE FINALLY HAVE PURPLE HAIR!!!! OMG! I'm all hyped up. hehe! PURPLE HAIR FTW!!
It's not that obvious, I have to go under the light for the colour to be able to be seen, but it's fine because I didn't bleach my hair. It still came out nice : D. Thank you, mommy for helping me dye my hair :)

Stand by Rascal Flatts. Never give up

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless, like you've lost your fight
But you'll be alright, you'll be alright

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand

Life's like a novel with the end ripped out
The edge of a canyon with only one way down
Take what you're given before it's gone
And start holdin' on, keep holdin' on
(From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/r/rascal-flatts-lyrics/stand-lyrics.html)

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
Cause it's all you can take

On your knees you look up
Decide you've had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, yeah, then you stand

Every time you get up
And get back in the race
One more small piece of you
Starts to fall into place, yeah

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you're made of
You might bend ?til you break
Cause it's all you can take

Yeah, then you stand
Yeah, baby
Woo hoo, woo hoo
Woo hoo, woo hoo
Then you stand, yeah yeah

Family bonding and the new look for the bear.

KEEP YOUR HANDS OFF THIS GUY!! HE'S MINE!!
Okay, I admit. He doesn't look bad with that hairstyle. I ADMIT IT K!!! sheesh! haha He looks very different though... I gotta get used to that o.e

had this for brunch. Very filling. 

Then we decided to go to Marks and Spencer's to get my dad some new pants because he gladly gave most of his pants away to the people in Philippines. Good pat in the back for that ol' chap! =D
We then took a stroll and went in and out of Forever21, Pull and Bear, Fox and Topshop. Didn't get anything  though.

This is Blake, he's been my best friend for 3 years and counting. I miss him : ( . Actually, I just got off the phone with him. Though the call only lasted for 1h, I enjoyed it :) It was great hearing his voice again. It's been so long. Blake has helped me through many things. He couldn't do much, thanks to the fact that he's in another country, but he tried his best to be :) LOVE YOU, BLAKE! GET YO ASS BACK IN SINGAPORE!

BTW, I have gotten Purple extensions :D FINALLY! I TOLD YOU I'LL GET PURPLE IN MY HAIR. ONE WAY OR ANOTHER. Wooohoo! Super high about them haha :P 

You are a strong person.

That is what everyone tells me. My mom, dad, cousins, friends, acquaintances and ect.
I am not strong. I am weak. I am a sensitive person when it comes to critics. You can easily kill me with every insult you lay on my feet.
But I try to be strong, or at least, pretend to be strong because I know what society will do when they sense weakness in a person. They would use it for their own personal gain. They would use that weakness to make you feel like the most useless, pathetic and ugly person that they've ever seen.
Whenever I hear or see something that tears my heart into pieces, if I am in a crowded room, I would hold back my tears and force out a smile. I might even say a few jokes around. I will wait till I'm alone till I let myself cry. Usually, that'll be in the corner of my room.

Whenever I would cry as a child, I would hide into my maid's room with the lights switched off and cry silently. When I feel that I'm ready and capable to put a fake smile, I'll wear that smile and leave the room to join my family.

The first time I broke down in school, my friends had no idea what to do. They didn't even dare to hug me. It was new for them to see me cry. Usually I would be the crazy one. Always laughing, making jokes, drawing everywhere. You know? Just being crazy and happy ol' me. But this day, I couldn't hold back the tears. I just couldn't. Reason for that? On that day, in the morning, I received news that my grandfather died. The school bullies weren't very kind to me on that day either. But I managed to maintain my poise till the end of school.

Ah shoot, almost forgot the point of this post. I'm here to say, I try to be strong because I know how it feels to be weak, to feel used and to cry myself to sleep every night. I grew tired of it. The day I grew tired of it, was when I told myself that I deserved to be happy. I told myself that I didn't need to cry myself to sleep. I mean, I have wonderful friends that cares for me, I have an awesome family that will never leave me and I have the best God that provides me all that I need. I should be happy that I'm alive. I should be sleeping with a smile and not sleep with tears running down my face. I should be happy. :) AND I WILL BE HAPPY. Okay...at least I'll try to be

Don't let me fall

That is the reason for me preparing for the day we break up. That is why my mind comes up with different little situations in my head, even though I know it will never happen. This is why I'm trying to face the fact that I'll lose you to someone better than I will ever be. 

It's not about me not trusting you, my dear. It's just safety mechanisms that I've somehow embedded into myself so that I wouldn't have to feel the full blow of depression and hurt. 

I've been hurt, used and betrayed so many times that I found it hard to trust anyone. I've tried my best NOT to get close to anyone. Because when I get close with someone. Life will make up some stupid excuse for that friend to leave me alone. 

Let me explain 

From Secondary 3, I've realized that all of my good friends has left the country or we've stopped communicating. The people that I've opened up to... Just gone..  okay, being over dramatic here, but we've gotten pretty distant. Which is very sad.
I am afraid to get close with another person because it hurts to see them walk away from your life.

Welcome home, Mother :)

MOMMY'S HOME!! : D
I know I sound like a child when I said that but YAY!!! MOMMY :3

And she brought home lots and lots of goodies : D. But my brother and I were just excited about giving my mother her present and seeing her expression.

After she passed us our gifts. We decided to give her her gift :)
She was very shocked and happy. YAY!

She loves it :)