Beautiful, isn't it? I went to the roof garden after work because I needed to just clear my mind and think.
Don't mind the title. I've just gotten the song " Total Eclipse of the heart by Glee" stuck in my head since this morning.
Seeing all the happy couples around the Espanade just reminded me of how lonely I really am. Loneliness loves to creep up on you like a ninja, doesn't it? You won't know when it'll strike. You could be taking a sip of water or just listening to music when suddenly, BANG, you realize how lonely you truly are. I know I have friends and family, so me being lonely is a joke, as some people say. But, I can't really explain it, it's like....something is missing. That special something or someone. Perhaps I just miss feeling loved by someone that I love too. Perhaps I just miss being surrounded in a world of my significant other. I don't know.
Being in a relationship because you're lonely is no way to go. So I'm going to have to learn how to cheer myself up, occupy myself and just be independent . For only I CAN BE THE SOURCE OF MY OWN HAPPINESS. I have got to stop leaving my happiness in the hands of other people. If I can't love myself, or at least keep myself happy ( as in genuinely happy), how am I suppose to love my significant other or to ensure that he'll be the happiest and luckiest guy on this planet? See my point?
Don't mind the title. I've just gotten the song " Total Eclipse of the heart by Glee" stuck in my head since this morning.
Seeing all the happy couples around the Espanade just reminded me of how lonely I really am. Loneliness loves to creep up on you like a ninja, doesn't it? You won't know when it'll strike. You could be taking a sip of water or just listening to music when suddenly, BANG, you realize how lonely you truly are. I know I have friends and family, so me being lonely is a joke, as some people say. But, I can't really explain it, it's like....something is missing. That special something or someone. Perhaps I just miss feeling loved by someone that I love too. Perhaps I just miss being surrounded in a world of my significant other. I don't know.
Being in a relationship because you're lonely is no way to go. So I'm going to have to learn how to cheer myself up, occupy myself and just be independent . For only I CAN BE THE SOURCE OF MY OWN HAPPINESS. I have got to stop leaving my happiness in the hands of other people. If I can't love myself, or at least keep myself happy ( as in genuinely happy), how am I suppose to love my significant other or to ensure that he'll be the happiest and luckiest guy on this planet? See my point?
I don't know why this happens to me. There would be a certain time of the day where I'd be super super depressed without any specific reason to why. Whenever I try to find the reason to why I was depressed, it would only make me even more depressed because I'd be thinking of all the bad things that has happened to me. Flash backs of the wrong doings that you've done is something no one should ever return to.
To cheer myself up, I asked Ate Myline to cut up some mangoes for me to eat. I'm going to enjoy devouring this now, Bway bway people :D
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