Manipulation

Here is what i have been up to! Photomanipulation effects:

Attempt 1

Attempt 2

Attempt 3

Attempt 4

Well, I haven't been blogging much.
There were so much going through my head that I didn't know how to put it in words. The longer I went without letting my thoughts out in some way, the more confused I gotten.
Heck, I almost broke up with Blake a couple of times even though I want him to be by my side. I don't know why I called it. I guess it's from listening to what others say, and how much they doubt that we would work out or from the pain long distance brings. Pain because of the lack of communication and to me, in a relationship; any relationship. Communication is key. 

Yesterday, I was about to end everything with Blake. Obviously, Blake didn't want a break up so he asked me a couple of questions. 

1) Are you sure you want to do this?
2) What are your doubts and who/what brought them up?

3) The first time I met you, you were as stubborn as a rock and as hard headed as ever. You never listened to what others have to say, so why start now?

It kind of annoys me that he was speaking so slowly and calmly while we were talking. But then again, when he speaks like it, it somehow calms me down. He loves to talk like that whenever I get worked up, pissed off, upset and ect..

I've also asked him some things, things like " You do know that you're not really putting this last chance to good use?" and " You're not really proving that you're worth it to me..if you hadn't noticed." and "Do you realize that you're not even showing me that you deserve my trust back?"

It shocked me when he said, " Mainly that's because, I DON'T deserve it. Not at all, not after what I did."

But we worked things out...i guess... :/ 

I just have to STOP listening to what others say and just believe in myself, and that this relationship will work. Both of us will make it work in one way or another.