It's really adorable how he calms me down whenever I over react to situations. Like how my heart broke when I asked him about this girl that he liked, her name was April.

Me: Whatever happened to April?

Blake : She fell for another guy. Don't ask, please. ><

Me: That kinda hurts :(

Blake : How come? :(

Me: I feel like I'm not your first choice

Blake: Haha! You are. That's why I'm getting a plane to visit Singapore for your birthday THEN get a laptop. Even though I need a laptop more. You're always first on my list.

Me: But the way you replied when I asked about April...It's like, I don't mean as much. You know? Or am I over thinking again? 

Blake: Over thinking. She was special to me but you're not in second place. She liked the same things that I do

Me: Unlike me :(

Blake: Please Stop, Ery. You're over reacting and it hurts. You are NOT second choice. I promise.

Me: Sorry I'm not a gamer. I try to like the same things as you do...I'm trying.

Blake: *kiss* Would you watch Doctor who with me? Would you sit and watch anime or eat pizza with me? Would you hold me when I needed it? <3 That's what i would love. There are millions of gamers out there. You don't have to be one. You just have to be you. 

Tell me again why we're NOT together?

Oh right...because we made a contract to not be together until we're both in the same country. That contract is what keeps the both of us safe from feeling lonely or hurt if either one of us falls for another person.

It hurts though... knowing that any girl in Australia could take him away from me. That I'd be losing him even though he wasn't even mine to begin with. I wonder if he's feeling the same way...