It affects me a lot when he doesn't even talk to me for 1 day. Why?
In one of my relationships, that's how it started going downhill. Then again, why should I worry, right? He's not even mine to begin with.

There are times where we act like lovers. But i don't really know what we are. He asked me to marry him.. but of course I told him to ask me that in another 10 years. Oh but he knows what I'll say. He knows me too well and he seems confident of 'this', whatever this is, would last for that long.

Honestly, I was skeptical when he told me years ago that in 2012 he would still love me.
I was only reminded about that when he said, " HA! And you thought this relationship can't even make it to 3 years."
Well it didn't, didn't it? After 1 year... He cheated on me with Amy. Then the next girl was Lisa, Lydia, April and Rachel.

Our friendship was compromised when he was together with Lisa. Blake just obeyed everything she said and he started becoming this whole other person that I don't even know. So i started to distance myself from him.
When i didn't talk to him for a week, it finally hit him. He came back to me, and left Lisa. But i never trusted him from that day onward. Feelings fluxed... though they are on the mend..

I refuse to let myself be hurt by him again.
i remember him saying this to me:

Blake: I'm afraid for you.

Me: why? 

Blake: I'm afraid of me. I'm afraid that I'll hurt you again.

Well, I'm sad to say that he has hurt me.. many times actually.
Best advice? Walk away from it all.