- Through the Father's Eyes
- Perfect Moment
- Friends for Life
- True love waits
- Free to choose
During talk 1; Through the Father's Eyes, I learned that finding yourself is a life long journey. There is no specific time or age where you can actually stand up and say, " Yes. I know who I am. I've found my true calling.". As you grow, preference, perception and attitude changes, thus you're always needing to relocate who you are.
I also learnt that I have to choose my friends. For example, if I have friends who only causes me to have self destructive behaviours or a friend who keeps bringing my self esteem down, then I'll just be better off without friends like them. I need and deserve friends who are going to help me become a better person and I need friends who will encourage or will stick by me during difficult times. Don't let others influence the way you think of yourself.
Talk 2; Perfect Moments. This talk was the tear jerker amongst all talks. Louis gave a really really good talk. During this talk, I realized that no family is perfect. It may seem perfect, but there will always be those invisible cracks around that can easily tear the family apart. Invisible cracks made by lies, mistakes, distrust, and disappointments. But what matters the most is that we realize that we hurt someone and that we are sorry for causing that person so much pain. We have to decide to forgive and forget, so that we can let go of all the pain, so that we can choose to be happy. SO we can choose to love UNCONDITIONALLY. Just like how God loves us.
Talk 3; Friends for life. During this talk, I was crying non-stop. Because Ate Carissa was talking about how some friendships are very very hard to maintain. I've learned that if I feel like the friendship is worth it, I should be fighting for it. I may not fix the relationship within a day, a week or a few months, but if it's worth it, then I should NEVER give up on trying to fix it. It would really help if God is with me/us whenever we try to solve the problem. Understanding is a requirement as well, because if you don't understand how the other person is or how the other person is feeling then it would only make the problem much worse. I cried during this talk because it reminded me of Tedd and I. About how we fought and how we left it unresolved. I thought about how I just gave up and decided to remove him from my life. I really feel like our friendship or whatever relation we have is worth having. But the thing is, he isn't listening to my side of why we fought. He doesn't want to see my side of it. And I decided to remove him from my life because I've had enough of hurting. I'm done feeling like crap whenever I see his name pop up on any of my social networks. After removing him, I felt comfort that I didn't him anywhere. :)
After that talk, I had a heart to heart talk with Ate Elisha. She made me realize that Tedd was just another guy. Another guy that didn't know how to handle the way I am. That I deserve better. I deserve a guy that will always stick by me and no matter how many times I may push him away, he'll always come back. She made me realize how easy it was for any guy to say " I don't feel like I love you anymore. We're over.". It's really easy to feel like you lost the feeling. But what is hard is staying together even though you don't feel like you love him/her anymore. The words that have been stuck in my head is " If you're going to base the relationship because of that feeling, it will never work out." I can never forget those words now. Thank you, Ate Elisha for making me feel slightly better. Moving on isn't easy. It may take years or months before I manage to move on... But I'm doing it. She helped me realize that it wasn't stupid of me for wanting him back or wanting a proper closure with him.
Talk 4; Love can wait. I learnt that I deserve to be loved and I deserve the best. I learnt that I did not need to rush to end the pains of a heartache but to just let it hurt me and let God heal my wounds. Thus making me a stronger person. :) I need a guy who can make me feel secure and loved. And that Love is love, doesn't matter if you love the person as a friend, a lover or a brother/sister, you still love the person. It's a fact. The activity after that shocked me. It was the boys writing letters to the girls and giving them roses. I was even surprised to get 1 from Carl. But I received 2..amazing. Love you guys : D Thank you for making me feel loved. Thank you for reminding me that friends are always there for me.
Talk 5; Free to choose. This is the talk where I learnt that it was MY choice whether I want to see something as positive or negative. If you see something as negative then the way you treat that something will be different. That's why you have to see the positive in all things to be content with life. I'm going to try and do that. I've always been a pessimist, now I will try my best to be more optimistic about everything. :)
Overall, Discovery Camp has indeed changed me. And it is also a very very unforgettable event. :)
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