It's time to let go and be at peace

Discovery Camp

I just got home from Discovery Camp at Choice Retreat Home. I just want to talk about the 5 talks that they had.

1. Through the Father's Eyes
2. Perfect Moment
3. Friends for Life
4. True love waits
5. Free to choose

During talk 1; Through the Father's Eyes, I learned that finding yourself is a life long journey. There is no specific time or age where you can actually stand up and say, " Yes. I know who I am. I've found my true calling.". As you grow, preference, perception and attitude changes, thus you're always needing to relocate who you are. 

I also learnt that I have to choose my friends. For example, if I have friends who only causes me to have self destructive behaviours or a friend who keeps bringing my self esteem down, then I'll just be better off without friends like them. I need and deserve friends who are going to help me become a better person and I need friends who will encourage or will stick by me during difficult times. Don't let others influence the way you think of yourself.

Talk 2; Perfect Moments. This talk was the tear jerker amongst all talks. Louis gave a really really good talk. During this talk, I realized that no family is perfect. It may seem perfect, but there will always be those invisible cracks around that can easily tear the family apart. Invisible cracks made by lies, mistakes, distrust, and disappointments. But what matters the most is that we realize that we hurt someone and that we are sorry for causing that person so much pain. We have to decide to forgive and forget, so that we can let go of all the pain, so that we can choose to be happy. SO we can choose to love UNCONDITIONALLY. Just like how God loves us. 

Talk 3; Friends for life. During this talk, I was crying non-stop. Because Ate Carissa was talking about how some friendships are very very hard to maintain. I've learned that if I feel like the friendship is worth it, I should be fighting for it. I may not fix the relationship within a day, a week or a few months, but if it's worth it, then I should NEVER give up on trying to fix it. It would really help if God is with me/us whenever we try to solve the problem. Understanding is a requirement as well, because if you don't understand how the other person is or how the other person is feeling then it would only make the problem much worse. I cried during this talk because it reminded me of Tedd and I. About how we fought and how we left it unresolved. I thought about how I just gave up and decided to remove him from my life. I really feel like our friendship or whatever relation we have is worth having. But the thing is, he isn't listening to my side of why we fought. He doesn't want to see my side of it. And I decided to remove him from my life because I've had enough of hurting. I'm done feeling like crap whenever I see his name pop up on any of my social networks. After removing him, I felt comfort that I didn't him anywhere. :)

After that talk, I had a heart to heart talk with Ate Elisha. She made me realize that Tedd was just another guy. Another guy that didn't know how to handle the way I am. That I deserve better. I deserve a guy that will always stick by me and no matter how many times I may push him away, he'll always come back. She made me realize how easy it was for any guy to say " I don't feel like I love you anymore. We're over.". It's really easy to feel like you lost the feeling. But what is hard is staying together even though you don't feel like you love him/her anymore. The words that have been stuck in my head is " If you're going to base the relationship because of that feeling, it will never work out." I can never forget those words now. Thank you, Ate Elisha for making me feel slightly better. Moving on isn't easy. It may take years or months before I manage to move on... But I'm doing it. She helped me realize that it wasn't stupid of me for wanting him back or wanting a proper closure with him. 

Talk 4; Love can wait. I learnt that I deserve to be loved and I deserve the best. I learnt that I did not need to  rush to end the pains of a heartache but to just let it hurt me and let God heal my wounds. Thus making me a stronger person. :) I need a guy who can make me feel secure and loved. And that Love is love, doesn't matter if you love the person as a friend, a lover or a brother/sister, you still love the person. It's a fact. The activity after that shocked me. It was the boys writing letters to the girls and giving them roses. I was even surprised to get 1 from Carl. But I received  2..amazing. Love you guys : D Thank you for making me feel loved. Thank you for reminding me that friends are always there for me. 

Talk 5; Free to choose. This is the talk where I learnt that it was MY choice whether I want to see something as positive or negative. If you see something as negative then the way you treat that something will be different. That's why you have to see the positive in all things to be content with life. I'm going to try and do that. I've always been a pessimist, now I will try my best to be more optimistic about everything. :) 

Overall, Discovery Camp has indeed changed me. And it is also a very very unforgettable event. :)

So there i was just scrolling through someones tumblr, and i came across this and i just stopped. It caught my attention for a long time. I noticed every piece breaking, in slow motion so clearly and the one thing that came to my mind was that moment when your heart breaks. When you can feel it drop and break into little pieces when you hear something that you wish wasn’t true, the truth that you have made yourself not believe, read something you wish hadn’t, or seen something you wish you hadn’t.

I'm sure this is how he feels.

How to solve problems.

heartbreaks...

It still hurts, knowing that I lost him.

It feels as if time stopped just so I could stay in pain. Forever having that void in me. Forever feeling like shit.

I really want him back in my arms because he was the best that I've ever gotten. He was different from my previous boyfriends.. but I treated him exactly the same. Unintentionally, of course. Tedd was better. He was a lot better than they were. I can't believe that i treated him the same.. Wait.. Actually no. There were many ways that I treated him differently from my ex's. I wouldn't have gone all the way to the other side of the country to where they would live just to meet for a few hours. I wouldn't have stayed up all night when he's still awake. I've treated him differently..... it's just the pushing away that remained the same.. I'm sorry.

I found out that I broke his trust because it seemed that I didn't trust that he would be there for me when I'm in need and my actions proved so. How? I ignored him for the whole day...

Not a smart move, I admit. I was just really really angry that day. Because I was too used to my boyfriends cancelling everything they have planned to be by my side when I said that I needed them. I was mad at him for not changing his plans to be with me.. I was not used to that..
I mean, yea, he can go out with his friends and play and stuff.... at that moment..I was just selfish and I kept thinking of myself. I'm sorry.

I know I also hurt him when he saw that I was able to tweet but not reply his SMSes... I know how that feels like. It's feels super fucked up.. Majorly fucked up. It makes the other person feel like you don't care enough to even respond to the text while you can happily be tweeting online. I'm super sorry for that too...

What's worse? I dared to accuse him of not being there for me. I stepped out of line. He was there for me, but I was too caught up with my selfishness that I didn't realize he was. I'm sorry. So sorry.  

Nobody likes being accused of something they didn't do. It's just so easy to point your finger and blame others when, in fact, you were the one at fault... I am an idiot. Now he's gone. Never wanting to be by my side. Losing all feelings for me because of what I did. But the thing is, I did trust him. I've never doubted him, ever. Yes, my actions didn't seem like I did. But I have a hard time putting how I feel and my emotions into actions. So there are times where my actions contradict what I say. I just hopes he understands that. 

I really want him back. I really really do. But he is afraid that I might hurt him again. He feels that he doesn't love me anymore. He hates me. All those thoughts, I'm sure is true and is truly heartbreaking. Very heartbreaking. He was unsure about giving me a second chance. I don't think he is willing to risk me hurting him again for the same reason. Everyone deserves a second chance, but not for a repeat of the same mistake. If he did give that second chance, I will NEVER waste it.. I'll make sure that I won't mess it up. Life without risk is a life not lived. If he's not willing to risk giving me another chance, I understand why...
But when I say that, I really wish he would... he won't regret taking that risk... 

Okay.. i want to move on.. I really do. I know how to move on. But.. there's something telling me not to. Because his actions, too, do not correspond with his words and actions.
I want to move on because, I've been very irritable lately. I don't seem to be able to enjoy my day. And I am just lost... I am lost without him. And I just really want to be found again. I want to stop hurting.

I just wish I could ask him.." Did you believe in us? "

I want a long lasting relationship. One that I can brag to my grand children about, saying that soul-mates really do exists. One where I can share everything with that person and truly feel safe in their arms. I want to be able to know that person like I know myself. Knowing that they’re my second half. I want us to be with each other through everything; Like graduation, college, jobs, marriage, and every little things in between. I want to be able to grow old and be able to look back on our memories, reminiscing about all the good times we had. I want our love to be special.

Pains of the heart

That person was in my life for 3 months...and he showed the reason to why nothing in the past worked out yesterday.
And I still managed to lose him and push him away...He didn't deserve that...

I was stupid to do that.. to call for the break up. But I was hoping that you wouldn't let me walk away just like that... 

Guess I failed the photo a day challenge.

Let's see, I managed to do it until day 3.. then I became uninspired by the things around me. It's kinda scary, you know? Lately I haven't been in the mood to take any photos or anything. The thing that I used to be so passionate about, now doesn't seem to peek my interest.  I mean, I used to go out at around 5.30-6.45pm to take shots because I love the lighting around that time. And I used to be able to complete these photo a daay challenges! Maybe I spend too much time on the internet? or with my phone? something???? I don't know.

Yesterday would be a good example. I didn't even take the camera out of my bag during Family Culture. And when I was on my way home, there was a beautiful skyline. I wasn't able to capture it because I didn't feel like taking the camera out of my bag. I just stared at it and wished I wasn't so lazy to take my camera out of my bag. 

SEE WHAT I MEAN!? I've NEVER been LAZY to remove my camera from out of my bag because I used to be so eager to capture that moment and share it with others. I've been feeling like this for a while now, and I'm freaking out. Am I losing my passion for photography? The thing that used to be able to cheer me up, no matter what the situation may be. Photography used to be my life. But lately...Nothing has been inspiring me...

First PA of 2012. Back to School!

I actually forgot to bring my camera to this event :'( Oh well! we still have a couple of awesome shots anyways! :D SO! This is the FIRST EVER PA of 2012, themed, " Back to school!". So basically, everyone was wearing their school uniform. For people who were in poly, they wore their secondary uniform or dressed as teachers. All in all, it was extremely fun. Then again, time spent with the YFCs are always fun :D 

Tessa and I while I was wearing that helmet that I took from Neil. :D But the sad thing is that it kept slipping off :/ Priscilla said that I looked like a turtle .___. But all I wanted to do was walk around, snap pictures and wear the helmet while doing all those. That's me and my quirky ways! No, I am not trying to act cute... i just really wanted to play around with the helmet. I also borrowed Keith's lab coat. but it was super duper big for me. I wore it for a few minutes then took it off and gave it back to him.

The paint above was used to design the cross. Our left hand was suppose to be our pains and struggles while our right hand was our triumphs, victories and personal things. We dipped our hands in the paint then went up to the cross and decorated it with our paint covered hands. To me, it's like imprinting our pains and struggles to god and knowing that god put us through those times to help make us a stronger and better person. The right hand is to thank God for the things that we are able to accomplish.

Come to think of it, I wonder what the YFCs do with all those things that we do. Do they store it and use it for future events or something? ._. hmm.. Curious. 

During the whole entire PA, I could not and WOULD NOT remain in the same place for too long. I can never stay in 1 place for too long...I'll need to move about. That's why I kept walking here and there during PAs :D But I think it's best if I cut down on the fidgeting huh? I think it's starting to annoy people. 

After PA, they gave us snacks! A plastic bag with Juice, a banana and bread! :D I remember whining to Roselle that I didn't know how to peel the banana...then when she showed me how, I just said, ' I knew that! I was just testing you!' She responded with, ' Then why did you whine?' Without thinking, I said,' Whining was a way that I can grab your attention to test you!!" Then we gave each other the poker face and laughed. 

Congratulations to Tedd for winning the hockey game :) Go out there and have a celebratory dinner, dear. Good luck for your next game tomorrow and I hope that you'll win again :)  

When I got home, I noticed the moon looked so beautiful. So i took a snap shot of it.

Then I came home to eat dinner with my family. That practically sums up my day.

I just have to say 1 thing about YFC. YFC is my second family. It's a place where there will ALWAYS be people guiding you to the right path, though there may be some bad influences ( like being late and stuff ), always having people you can count on, there will always be someone in there that will help to support you. YFC is the best thing that I've ever decide to join, best thing that I've ever gone into, best place that I could ever go to find friends that I can truly count on and be myself around without people thinking that I'm an IMH patient, and it's also the best place to help to strengthen my faith in God. Thank you. Thank you for everything. 

Now with green and yellow paint on my hands, I bid thee farewell! BYE :D 

Got this from Tumblr..And I wanna answer them

1. What is your best friends name?

Blake Robert Ekeberg Towson.

2. What color underwear/boxers wearing now?

Beige.

3. What are you listening to right now?

Angel in disguise - The red jumpsuit apparatu

4. Whats your favorite number?

3.

5. What was the last thing you ate?

Calamari Rings

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be?

PURPLE!

7. How is the weather right now?

Calm

8. Who was the last person you talked 2 on the phone?

Blake.

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?

Personality? Or fashion sense. haha

10. Do you have a significant other?

Yes. :) Yes I do :D

11. Favorite TV show?

DOCTOR WHO! :D

12. Siblings?

1 annoying little brother. But he's not so bad now :)

13. Height?

149 :( 

14. Hair color?

Dark brown! But it's red-ish now

15. Eye Color?

Dark Brown

16. Do you wear contacts?

Nope!

17. Favorite Holiday?

Whenever we go back to the Philippines :D 

18. Month?

November / December. Mainly because of the weather

19. Have you ever cried for no reason?

No? I always have a reason for tears to be shed

20. What was the last movie you watched?

Alvin and the Chipmunks

21. Favorite Day of the Year?

Saturday

22. Are you too shy to ask someone out?

DUH! I'm a naturally shy person!

23. Can you do a headstand (not using the wall)?

Not at all! I can't even do it with a wall!

24. Hugs or Kisses?

Both? haha only 1? Hugs :D

25. Chocolate or Vanilla?

CHOCOLATE! Hands down!

26. Do you want your friends to respond to this?

-nil-

27. Who is most likely to respond to a text from you?

Most of the people that I text :) Unless I got the wrong number

28. Who is least likely to respond to a text from you?

Roger Ng

29. What book are you reading?

At the moment. Nightmare by Stephen leather

30. Piercings?

A pair on my ears. Got them at 3 months old.

31. Favorite movies?

WHAT DREAMS MAY COME! 

32. Favorite football Team?

not really a sports person :/

33. What are you doing right now?

munching on snacks ._.

34. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn?

SALTED!!

37. Dogs or cats?

Dogs! 

38. Favorite flower?

lavenders

39. Been caught doing something you weren't supposed to do?

yea... 

40. Do you have a best friend of the opposite sex?

Blake is a guy...and I'm a girl... so yea

41. Have you ever loved someone?

of course. He broke my heart though. That's why it's LOVED

42. Who would you like to see right now?

Tedd! or My grandparents

43. Are you still friends with people from kindergarten?

mmm....2 of them :D Aginaya and Moses

44. Have you ever fired a gun?

Yes. 

45. Do you like to travel by plane?

By boat is more fun actually. But yes :)

46. Right-handed or Left-handed?

Righty! :D

47. How many pillows do you sleep with?

2!

48. Are you missing someone?

Yes. Yes I am :(

49. Do you have a tattoo?

Nope!

50. Anybody on Tumblr that you'd go on a date with?

There are a few actually ;) haha!

Open house

First book of 2012! 

Went to the 2 school that I hope to enter next year. Singapore Polytechnic and Ngee Ann Polytechnic. The engineering courses in Singapore Poly were very very intriguing. I also went to see the Animation and 3D arts and Digital Visual Effects. My main target was Ngee Ann poly. I wanted to check out 9 different courses.

1. Information Technology
2. Financial Informatics
3. Business Studies
4. Biomedical Engineering
5. Electrical Engineering
6. Electronic & Computer Engineering 
7. Biomedical Sciences
8. Mass Communication
9. Nursing ( But i kinda found this a tad boring .__. )

Well, before I went to inquire about the courses listed above. 

I enjoyed bugging him while he was giving demonstrations and helping out during the open house. It was fun :3  And he looks so cute in his nurse costume...thingy .__. haha! 

Anyways. While roaming around NP, Animation and 3D arts kind of interested me. I was really amazed that they didn't have an exams. Though they have countless projects to make up for the missing examinations. Still, projects are more fun to me, and drawing is a hobby of mine. That's why I will consider taking that as a course in Poly life : D 

Pasar malam

There's a pasar malam around my neighbourhood! My family decided...

There's a pasar malam around my neighbourhood! My family decided to reignite a family ritual whenever we spot a pasar malam. We walked throught the whole stretch of the pasar malam, buy stuff and ate the food sold there. 

The whole family stopped at Ramly burger. Each of us bought one burger and sat on the staircase of the MRT station while eating the burger. Evidently, we got thirsty. My brother and I said to go to 7eleven to buy bottled water but my mother said, " NO! We just buy a drink from the pasar malam. Para pasar malam na pasar malam. haha!" But we decided to just drink water from home, since we're just 2 blocks away, because it's free! :)

It was fun doing this again, it's been a while since we did it as a family. I enjoyed it :) yay!

Intriguing question.

Mark asked me a very very intriguing question.

" Are you happy?" 

It took me a while to answer that question. Because I asked myself, am I? Am I really content with how things are or did I fall for the façade that I'm happy? It kind of reminded me of the quote "He wears a mask and his face grows to fit it." For me, I've been wearing that "mask" for years. I think I've somehow made it a part of me to appear happy and bubbly in front of others. But when I'm alone, misery comes right back out to how it's ugly little head and ruin my day. I'm still pondering about that question... Am I truly.. happy?.. Answer? I don't think I am. I have indeed forgotten how it feels to truly be happy. As in, over the moon happy instead of Force-out-that-smile happy. I was so good at pretending to be happy that no one knew how miserable I was during the March PA when Adil just broke my heart. I survived a week before I needed the comforting of others. I couldn't take it... I headed for a break down, and this one wasn't pretty at all. I got out of that breakdown with the help of constantly looking in the mirror and telling myself " YOU ARE HAPPY. YOU ARE HAPPY. YOU ARE HAPPY." on a daily basis. Guess it worked huh? Now I'm still confused. 


Another thing that Mark said was 

"Sometimes I wish were closer.."

Well, i do have a reason to why I'm not really close with people. Ever since I was in primary 1 till secondary 5, all of my good friends has either moved to a different country or stopped talking to me. I don't really want to get close with anyone because I'm afraid that they would walk out of my life. I'm sick and tired of getting close to someone, opening up to someone and watching that person walk out of my life. That's why if I feel that a person is getting to close....I tend to push that person away. I don't let people in.. I don't let them see my vulnerable side. Even around my boyfriend, I keep that mask up. Pretend to be strong..when I'm weak and dying on the inside. I do not want to have to depend on anyone. I mean, what if that person whom I've been dependant on leaves huh? I'll be lost. Having no idea of what to do. No... I'm not going to be that person anymore. I'm going to try to be the person that people could count on, a person who they could turn to, to be a listening ear.

I've realized that pushing people away will only make me feel alone.. And NO ONE.. no one can bear solitude. I;m not stong enough to handle the problems that life throws at me alone..

God knows I'm not....

Thank you notes!

Allen : We started bonding when we went to the Oaper's residence. I came up to you in the swimming pool and we started to chat. Because you seemed kinda emo ._. Now we're a little bit closer :) Good to know that I have a person like you to open up to. Thanks Kuya!

Brandon : You damn blur boy! haha Thanks for the laughs and hugs :) You're so cute! I've only known you for a few months but we've gotten rather close with each other. We started talking after the Praise Concert when I felt alone. You walked up to me and we began to talk and found out that our lives are somewhat similar.

Blake : Blake! You've done so much for me. You called me every night when Adil broke up with me to make sure that I'm aright. Even though you are in Australia which would make your bill shoot through the roof! You know the right things to say or do to make me smile again. I love you, you big idiot! Thanks for everything

Carisa : Hey doll face! I've only known you for a few months. I know when you first saw me in that kitty cat hat, you were wondering, ' WHO THE HECK IS THAT HYPER KID TAKING PICTURES!" and probably got my age wrong. haha! But look at us now eh? Good progress : D

Carl : CARL! We didn't talk much this year. But you're still one of my closest friends that I can ever wish for. Thank you for being there for me when I cried in Pasir Ris Park when we bumped into Adil after the March PA. Thank you for helping me move on as well :)

Charles : HEY! Best time together? Script concert! Best ah!! haha! Thank you for not judging me for all that I've done and told you. People like you are kinda rare to find. Oh! And thanks for making me the live example for the CO. Also for the super hard low5 you gave me during the praise concert dance practice. haha! Thanks for making 2011 a fun one :)

Christine : Another blur person! haha! You're so blur but it's so cute! One of my closest friends ever! Thank you for making this year a super fun year : ) Sadly, we didn't get to do many things this year eh? I doubt we can do so next year also since your N levels are coming up. I'm here if you need help in maths. : D

Dillon : Fashionister! We met when you came for the cheer dance practice. But we only started to properly bond after the Sports fest when we went out for lunch with Tessa, Tasha, Martin and Lavinia. After we've gotten closer, I've realised that you DO NOT know how to use your camera! Must follow me to have a photoshoot one day! I'll teach you how to use your camera :D Or better, as Tedd! He has the same camera as you : )

Danielle : Hi Dannie!! :D Thanks for the fun FB wall posts :3 You must be exhausted from doing all that, since there is usually around 30-70 likes on those types of statuses! haha! Hope to get closer with you in 2012 : D Have an awesome 2012! Thank you for listening to my rants, for being a great friend. Keep smiling you creative, beautiful girl :) Don't let anyone bring you down. Remember, you don't really have to accomplish things like Eos in your school. Accomplish things for you with your best and be proud of it because you know that it's your best and that is enough to be satisfied about. Remember, you are different from Eos. You are your own person with a different mindset, different skill, different body. Don't forget yea? Have fun in school next year! <3

David : DAVID! I seriously love your exaggerated reactions to almost everything! They never fail to make me laugh even when I'm down. You are one hilarious guy! :D Thank you for making this year a fun(ny) year. We still haven't gone to your place for a swim ah! tsk! haha :P We'll all have more time this year! June holiday!! we go there! :D Be careful of the guys in your school! They might just want to get into your pants e.e haha!

Eos : Hi! I've opened up to you during the Jhearic incident. That guy really wanted to make me feel guilty, and he did....for months and months. Thank you for listening to my ranting and emoing and stuff... We've gotten a little bit closer too :D yay!!! Thank you for being a pillar of strength.

Ellaine : HEY! Thank you for being there for me :) Thank you for being my friend. You're a very smart, caring and lovely girl, Ellaine. Don't you forget that! All the best for your O level results :) Hope you could get into TP psychology course :)

Fredrich : John john!!!!! I <3 you man! I recall when Adil broke up with me...and when you found out. You came to my place to "watch a movie" when you came to help keep my mind off Adil and make sure I'm not emo. I recall you removing my socks because I tried laughing gas.. I still don't know why you didn't allow me to take it though :/ Thanks for making this year a hilarious year and thanks for making me smile :)

Gico : Best Dancer of YFC! whoop! haha! Thanks for also helping me with the Jhearic incident. I really love hanging out with you because you're so hyper and that makes everything fun! :D Thanks for letting me be involved in Chingay too! Best experience ever!! :D Thanks :)

Jessica : HEY JESSICA!! The person who comments the most on my blog! haha! We've gotten close this year, not so much but still rather close. Thank you for helping me out when Jhearic's friend kept calling me a "bitch" and would not leave me alone. Thank you for understanding how I felt when we were in the Marina Barrage. Basically, Thanks for everything :) But no thanks for you showing me the dragon bag... now I'm searching everywhere for that bag! It's only available in RUSSIA!!! RAWR!!! :(

Joseph Jonathan : Hi Kuya! Thank you for the calls to cheer me up when Adil broke up with me. Thank you for making me laugh. Thank you for always being there for me :) You said you'll be distancing yourself from me.... that was very upsetting to me : ( But it's still your choice. Thanks for everything Kuya :) Love you!

Martin : Forever late Martin! Always late!! haha! Thanks for listening to my rantings. We didn't really do much this year uh..  But it's super fun to waste time with you! Time goes by really fast haha. Sorry for the failed attempt to do a cover with you! You're so soft kase eh!!! And I have to be softer than you...that's hard man.. haha! NVM! Still love you! :)

Patricia F : HI Pat F! Thank you for helping me move on from Adil.. and force feeding me this year. I have to admit, starving myself for 1 week wasn't a very good idea :/ Thanks for changing the password to the love notes that he gave me. I couldn't get to the massages because I've forgotten the password that LJ placed...so i just deleted the app :P Thanks pat! :D It's kinda strange how we can relate to each other ( sometimes ) huh??

Patricia N : Doctor who addict! Thanks for all the hugs :) Huggy buddy!! And thank you for always posting doctor who stuff on tumblr, it got me curious about that show, now I'm addicted too! OH NO! haha!  Thanks for everything yea? Hope to get closer with you this year : D

Tasha : HI TASHA! I've gotten really close with you. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for listening to my rants. Thank you for being so understanding. Thank you for so so so many things :) We've only known each other for a few months but we've gotten super close! yay!! Just tolerate that girl a little bit more yea? Loves!

Tedd : Hi sweety! Thank you for everything :) Thank you for loving me, for being there for me, for the attempts to try to make me smile and everything else. Thank you for being so understanding and caring.  Remember when you asked me to be yours? Your right, it's something that I will never forget. It was so adorable!! I'm learning how to be more patient and understanding from you. I'm learning that better than when you taught me Chemistry in Starbucks. That was fun huh? Thanks for that too! I love you babe!

Tessa : HI TESSA! Cute sister of Tasha.. I think I can differentiate you and your sister from each other now.. I just tend to mix up the names.. Sorry about that! Thanks for everything. You never fail to make me laugh..Intentionally or unintentionally. Love you!

CHEERS TO 2012

Cheers to 2012!

All of us know that 2011 was a great year. We've gained and lost friends. Life goes on. Let's leave what happened in 2011 IN 2011 and start 2012 with a fresh page. Usually, I would do a personal thank you note to everyone that has helped me during the year... but it'll take me a long time to list down everyone and their own personal thank you note.
Should I?